reflections.

As I sit here reflecting on this last week or so, I've really come to see how important it is to lean into God in the hard times. A lot of hard things have resurfaced and life hasn't been quote on quote, "easy". But you know, I'm sure getting through things like I never did before. I'm learning each and everyday more and more to trust God with absolutely everything. I'm weak, and He is strong. I've had lots of stress with school, and beginning to prepare myself for this summer and the fall, and believe me, it's not easy. I'm so excited about my future and I know God will have me where he has me for a reason, I just need to practice leaning into him when the devil is causing me to doubt his power and excellence. This summer with be great, and I do know that as the day draws nearer God is preparing my heart, as well as the young girls I will be ministering too. As well and school next fall and the stress of money, if God wants me there, he will provide. I love what Nancy Alcorn once said. She told God, "Provide and I will go!" And he said, "No, GO and I will provide!" I love that, and it sticks with me today as I prepare to really trust God with some big things. I was very sick this past weekend and in those times that I lay there wishing I was elsewhere having fun, I realized that I need to humble myself. I can't live in a spirit of fear, but a SOUND MIND! I know God has prepared a way for me. He has me focusing on the here and now, so that when the future comes, I will be ready. I was praying about some things and realizing that what I ultimately want is to just be a good wife and mom, but I also know that God wants me to go to school and spend all this money for a reason. I'm going to do as he says and trust in him. I love God so much, and although I sometimes neglect our relationship, he's always there waiting for me to run back into his arms. It was so easy when things were going to good to just put God on the back burner sometimes. But now that things aren't easy, it's almost better, because he's more real. He's more HERE today than he was a week or 2 ago. I'm sound and secure in the fact that my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ will always provide for me, will always love me, and will never forsake me. Screw you devil for thinking you can butt in on this great relationship I've got going on with God. And thinking you can just take over my future plans to serve God with worry and fear. I won't succumb to it! I'm MORE THAN A CONQUERER IN CHRIST!

(PICTURE: me and Joellen on the C-Team Bible Study and Prayer Weekend! I love my middle schooler friends)